Thursday, August 9, 2018

Day 19 at the Hot Construction Site!

Yep it was at the construction site...and it was hot...and exhausting...and Terry and I were in it...and so were some other awesome actors...and it was so so much the fun. I had partially forgotten what an actor can go through on a film set, as it has been awhile since I have appeared in a film as an actor. So, it was a good day to revisit the experience, outside, in much heat and mugginess, in period clothes that do not breathe. Trying to retain the immediacy of a moment after many repetitions, again and again. The WORK part of an actor's work, though, is often less than glamorous. You are dressed up in sometimes-uncomfortable clothing, while people pinion you under super hot lights in a half-finished worksite in the high heat of summer, and then they expect you to be open and emotionally connected and visit the highs and lows of human experience, and they expect you to be kind and patient the whole time, no matter how uncomfortable. It’s much harder than it looks. As an actor, you are not in charge of your own fate. You have to lean back into the flow of the show and let it lead you. I guess a lot of creative work is that way. I have great respect for the art form I know best, the art of the performer. These actors that I am blessed to work with are open, game, experimental, and joyous in the face of their difficulties. They asked, today, to do a very difficult and demanding emotional scene first, so that we could all relax a bit more for the rest of the day. We had already scheduled it that way, so it was a win-win! They nailed a beautiful scene, and the rest of the day rolled on like a smooth river. And we all leaned into the flow of the show, borne up by their dedication.

Day 18: Casa Moore, Mariana, Pure Joy, and African Violets

A perfect wonderful day. And yes that is Terry and me rehearsing our lines. For today. So I will write more later. Yesterday we filmed at his house, today we film actually even closer to "home". Pure joy for me. Off to set!

Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Day 17: Gratitude: Sensitive Scenes with Tears, Goodbyes for Now

The 'Bullies', Brandon Oke and Lucas Oktay, wrapped work today in the lunchroom, and we were sad, but very grateful for all their fine, fine work. My wonderful son Theo, who is basically my reason for doing this movie, came to meet his 'doppelgänger', Lincoln Lambert, on his way to work, which was terribly nice of him so early in the morning. It was so beautiful seeing them together. Made my heart sing. And Mariana Klaven (star of "West of Redemption", our movie that is coming out very soon!) had her first, joyous day on set!! Larry and I were so happy! She is a godsend in the role of an angelic presence in our film. And the scene we called "The Battle of the Bands" in prep, between Mariana's sweet character and Erin Cummings' force of nature character, with kids Lincoln Lambert and Elliott Smith, took place in the school hallway. Then it was a wrap on Lincoln Lambert, our "Dana", and I cried. Quite a bit (Erin and Elliot we will see on set again in a few week, thank goodness). And a wrap on the school location, which has been so good to us for over a week! Not it is on to a new set of locations. Tomorrow's is full of memory for me...looking forward to it very much as we welcome Ashley back to join Mariana in this small, interesting location. Thank you for your prayers; all who are sending love. Every day seems to bring more joys and sorrows for me, as I relive raw moments of my life that are represented by both the novel and the script. It is a supreme blessing to be able to tell a story so grounded in one's own experience. It is a gift I do not take lightly. Thank you from my soul; cast, crew, backers, prayer partners, and especially Washington Filmworks. Bless you, bless you.

Monday, August 6, 2018

Day 16: Lunch Room and Language Arts Class

Language Arts Class was a joy, as we got to hear Jane Ryan's character "Mrs. Braxton" wax poetical on the merits of our language, questioned by "Astrida". Then it was a picture wrap on them both. Really will miss them! On to the Lunchroom, where we had a glorious plethora of background extras, eating a pretend school lunch with our 4 actor boys. Some of our outstanding BG actors:

Saturday, August 4, 2018

Day 15-Half Way Home, and a Stunt

I am living in warm memories of my sweet Mom, Sylvia Duryee...today would have been her birthday. It is likely always going to be a tidal pull on my heart, because we were so close, and because that was so hard-won. Lordy, I do miss her so. Some days on set just break me wide open emotionally, and yesterday was one of those days. We had to do a small stunt, but our stunt coordinator that day, Art Hickman, handled it well, and the actors did an extremely good and poignant job of making our hearts catch, each take. And because of the stunt, there were ten takes, in two setups, which is super rare for me. Had to get it right. This show is utterly shattering for me, because of my own backstory. Most days I am able to channel it into the flow of the work, with few emotional moments, but occasionally I need to walk away, in between setups, for a few moments, and breathe myself back from a flood of sadness. When you have actors this glorious, and such a fine team facilitating their beautiful work, I would be a stone not to be moved. And I ain't no stone. My heart is very full, throughout this filming. Sometimes it just spills over. And that is a good thing.

Thursday, August 2, 2018

Day 14: 1962 4th Grade Class Picture!

Erin Cummings has arrived in our Tribe, and brought pure joy. Her scene with Eliott and Jane was a great day for us...looking forward to much more! A few Camera Tribe folk posing as kids in class made us all grin. And then the REAL class posed...big fun! And...tomorrow is day 15 of 30...half way! Thank you for all your well-wishes and prayers, they are so very much appreciated and needed. It's a marathon, but a very joyful one.

Day 13: Roll 100: The Champagne Roll!

School Zone! Kids at Play! This week we are ensconced in the chalk-scented halls of our school location. (Thank you Seattle Public Schools, Senator Frockt, the teachers and administrators and all our neighbors for being so generous with this marvelous location.) Of course, you can’t film school scenes without students, and this week we add about forty tween-age kids and twenty faux parents and teachers into the mix. These folks are Background Actors. They are the actors that help us give a room, or street, its particular flavor and atmosphere. Think of the patrons in the Cantina on Tatooine. Our kids are just like that - only with less make-up and prosthesis. :) As I watch our Background Actors, and especially as I work with our Cast, (the kids who have speaking lines), I am filled with awe, sympathy and gratitude for the real-life parents of these kids. Raising a child takes a delicate balance of release and support. Giving your kid freedom to explore and learn about themselves and the world, and enough love and clear guidance that they feel safe in themselves and in the community, is a challenge. Back in the day, when the two stars of my life were just little guys, I was a ballet mom and a theater mom. As a “recovering actor” myself, I had to find the balance between being helpful and being too helpful. I could have offered thoughts, suggestions, notes on their acting and occasionally they asked me to do that. But the first time I gave in to questioning and did so, it was a mistake. I learned that my function, as my child worked in this art form, was to just be a mom. To enfold the lads with love and support, and make sure they stayed hydrated, but to stay away from any acting coaching or directing, or even advice from another professional. My kids needed to forge that relationship with their directors and their acting instructors. Not with me. The parents who are on set with our talent are so fantastic. During breaks, they are there with water and snacks, of course, but also with high-fives and hugs. They are there with engaging, but not taxing, games and riddles to keep the kids energy up and focused. They are awesome parents. And then, when their kid heads off to set, they take out their books or laptops and let their kids go do their work. They are a beautiful reminder of the kind of give and take, of trust and love that goes into good parenting and good art. To my glee today, we got to really work for the first time with Jane Ryan, who is a delight to our fair city. I have been her fan for years and now I get to direct her! So happy. Tomorrow more joys await, as a glorious actress has arrived to our set and it is her first day tomorrow. *happy face* And today was our 100th roll shot, our "Champagne Roll"! Much happiness ensued. I guess we are really making a movie or something.